How I feel using different song lyrics. Writing a journal saying what i feel is not what i want to do about this stuff so i did this. There are many meanings to this journal. I will be surprised if any of you understand it and get all the songs.



I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface

Im begging you to make the hurting go away.
Pretty brown eyes, tears full of guilt.
A heart full of pain and fear.
I keep on crying but it doesn't seem to help at all
With every single tear drop, it's like another rain drop falls.


It's not enough, it never is.

Living is hard enough
Without you fucking up.

Moments can be feelings,
Things aren't always what they seem
Please don't wake me from this dream,
Don't wake me from this dream,

Stapled shut inside and outside world and I'm
Sealed in tight but right at home

Wiggled like a stitch, yet I'm the one who's hurt
Pay attention to your twisted little indiscrestions
I've got no right to way, I'm just caught up all the battles

Traded my emotions for a contract to commit
And when I got away I only got so far
The other me is dead, I hear his voice inside my head
Tied my soul into a knot and got me to submit
So when I got away I only kept my scars
The other me is gone now I don't know where I belong

I just wanna be NUMB
I don't wanna feel a thing
I don't want reality
Actually, reality stinks

Maybe we'll turn it around 'cause it's not too late
It's never too late
It's not too late, it's never too late

I'll never feel alone again with you by my side.
You're the one, and in you I confide.

Show me how defenseless you really are
satisfied and empty inside

And now all I can do is smile
And fade into the background........