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Clear things up...

Journal Entry: Tue Mar 25, 2008, 12:17 PM
  • Mood: Emotional
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This is just a journal to let everything out, maybe a rant or whatever you want to call it. For me its a way of letting everything out. I'm not looking for attention or anthing like that, just to make that clear.

To be frank with everything, life is very hard. For me its got to a point where it's getting to much for me to deal with. I've been trying to deal with it in my methods I have (some people will say they aren't the best, but it doesnt bother me). Most of which dont work for me anyway.

People are like you can tell me and you can trust me, but I dont think I would like sharing how I feel with anyone right now, so don't take it personally. I doubt that any of you can understand how I feel unless you are me, so there is no point trying to explain.

Some of the things are better left unsaid and unheard. Personal things which seem to be only understood by me and only me. Others aren't things I would share with anyone, much rather keep them to myself. It's just what I think is best for myself and everyone else.

Don't get me wrong, it doesn't mean I wouldn't share stuff with you. It's if you ask and I don't tell you right away or tell someone else instead, dont take it to heart.

Yeah okay, I admit I've snapped at people, been depressed, considered some really uneccesary ways of dealing with my problems. Either way sorry if I hurt/upset you by doing this to any of you. If you had any idea what's going on in my life, they you maybe understand better.

Sometimes I feel like locking myself up and crying. Crying so mcuh that I run out of tears to cry. At random times, I start crying once or twice at school (not sure if any of you have noticed) but I cant help it. I cry myself to sleep some nights. I know crying wont help problems but it's either crying or destroying something. Believe me, my anger is somthing you dont wanna see.

Just thought I would let you all know. I'm dealing with it in my own way. Thanks but no thanks, for your help.

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    chocolatedwarf@hotmail.com
  • Current Age: 1539872---->and still going strong!!!
  • Current Residence: Somewhere only we know...
  • Favourite movie: Lots and lots. Can't list them.
  • Favourite band or musician: This box is too small to list them =]
  • Favourite genre of music: Mixed, apart from old and country stuff
  • Favourite photographer: Myself :P
  • Favourite style of art: Landscape, natural scenery, pics which show emotion and colour .
  • Operating System: Windows XP.
  • MP3 player of choice: Apple iPod nano 2nd Generation in blue.
  • Skin of choice: My own.
  • Favourite cartoon character: Top Cat and Pink Panther
  • Personal Quote: I use the word 'like' alot
  • Tools of the Trade: Be yourself and be pround of who you are no matter what anyone else says

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*MrsCullen:iconMrsCullen: 5 days 17 hours ago
    :iconthanxsomuchplz:


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~Licks-Ninjas:iconLicks-Ninjas: Jul 14, 2008, 9:10:37 AM
Thanks for more favs, again! :D :hug:

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~Jess
*MrsCullen:iconMrsCullen: Jul 10, 2008, 3:28:02 AM
    Thank you so much for the :+fav:!
    I appreciate it a lot!

    :heart:


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~Licks-Ninjas:iconLicks-Ninjas: Jul 8, 2008, 11:18:20 AM
:o Thank you for more favs! :glomp:

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I say, My Chemical Romance and Tokio Hotel are rather spiffy, aren't they?

When I grow up, I want to be nothing at all.
Lass uns gemeinsam, in die Nacht.


~Jess
~Licks-Ninjas:iconLicks-Ninjas: Jul 1, 2008, 2:28:38 PM
Thanks for the fav! :D

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I say, My Chemical Romance and Tokio Hotel are rather spiffy, aren't they?

When I grow up, I want to be nothing at all.
Lass uns gemeinsam, in die Nacht.


~Jess
~u-star:iconu-star: Jul 1, 2008, 9:31:26 AM
No prob

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We see the people we love as we want them to be, not as who they really are!!
~u-star:iconu-star: Jul 1, 2008, 9:31:11 AM
NOprob

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We see the people we love as we want them to be, not as who they really are!!
~u-star:iconu-star: Jul 1, 2008, 9:30:29 AM
Woo! :D

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We see the people we love as we want them to be, not as who they really are!!
~u-star:iconu-star: Jun 27, 2008, 10:15:42 AM
Yeah but the other even b4 didnt really talk to me

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We see the people we love as we want them to be, not as who they really are!!
*MrsCullen:iconMrsCullen: Jun 26, 2008, 12:47:06 AM
    :iconpanicatthediscoplz:


    thank you so much!

    :icondweebdanceplz:


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~Splendj-rulez:iconSplendj-rulez: Jun 25, 2008, 2:36:58 PM
well maybe it because me + gaz can let go of the past... forgive and forget XD
sadly i guess the others have just been too hurt by wot happened between u and vik :'(

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~GwenavhyeurAnastasia:iconGwenavhyeurAnastasia: Jun 24, 2008, 3:05:02 PM
Thanks so much for the faves. :hug:

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~professorpumpkin:iconprofessorpumpkin: Jun 22, 2008, 9:49:15 PM
:glomp: Boosh love!

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~washwithcare:iconwashwithcare: Jun 17, 2008, 1:53:43 PM
thanks for the fav and the add

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~danielasrodrigues:icondanielasrodrigues: Jun 17, 2008, 12:24:21 PM
thank you :aww:

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~u-star:iconu-star: Jun 17, 2008, 9:50:44 AM
You and Gareth thats it. None of the the other do and i know that.

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We see the people we love as we want them to be, not as who they really are!!
~Splendj-rulez:iconSplendj-rulez: Jun 15, 2008, 10:06:39 AM
err hello? i do lol XD
maybe the reason others don't like you is because of how u keep going against vicky :(
coz once that happens u start making her sad and then they feel offended that u wud do such a thing ---> causing hate X_X

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If you want to know what Splendj means..... you must surrender to the Cereal and give up your SOUL!!!!!
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~Licks-Ninjas:iconLicks-Ninjas: Jun 13, 2008, 3:10:43 PM
Thanks for the fav! :D

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I say, My Chemical Romance and Tokio Hotel are rather spiffy, aren't they?

When I grow up, I want to be nothing at all.
Lass uns gemeinsam, in die Nacht.


~Jess
~x-kyu-chan-x:iconx-kyu-chan-x: Jun 8, 2008, 6:00:35 AM
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~eliertehelf 1 day 9 hours ago
I'm sorry...

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~u-star:iconu-star: Jun 6, 2008, 4:24:16 AM
No one in the group likes me

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~Splendj-rulez:iconSplendj-rulez: Jun 5, 2008, 12:54:35 PM
ooh tht 1. well wot i mean is how the past is repeating itself again and the group is tearing apart again, with evry1 hating evry1 :'( personally i don't want any of it to happen full stop... but tht's too simple for life :/ tht's y i feel terrible about the situation u r in. also i wish i cud help u more with the situation, but i think this is something only time will heal... all i can do is wait and hope it repairs itself :/

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If you want to know what Splendj means..... you must surrender to the Cereal and give up your SOUL!!!!!
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~zaccie:iconzaccie: Jun 3, 2008, 2:13:50 AM
thx for the favs!

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~u-star:iconu-star: Jun 3, 2008, 1:21:37 AM
thx for the fav my friend D

i feel terrible about the situation you've been thrown into and i wish i can help you more
I can only hope time will heal all wounds... ---> this comment

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~Splendj-rulez:iconSplendj-rulez: Jun 2, 2008, 1:06:50 PM
which comment??? please be specific becuase im a bit thick atm oo' sos lol

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If you want to know what Splendj means..... you must surrender to the Cereal and give up your SOUL!!!!!
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~pyros-dream:iconpyros-dream: May 31, 2008, 10:18:13 AM
thankies for faving cherished [link]

have a good day ^^

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One day you'll come to me and kiss me, tel me how much you missed me
until then for you
I'm screaming